To be clear and honest, I am drug free,
and I have no credit cards-no outstanding debts other than monthly living expenses, so it isn't like I am living beyond
my means, I am just struggling to live week to week. After 9/11 I relied upon my savings to survive, the savings I had
is depleted.
I was recently diagnosed with internal digestive
complications in early May 2005, coupled with some other health issues (degen disk disease resulting in several fractured
vertabrae in my neck & back, Reynauds and carpal tunnel both hands). As I mentioned I have no where to turn
for assistance, my natural family is all deceased.
I am fit, not obese in my 40's- it is
getting more difficult to function as depression starts to set in due to my overwhelming situation, how I would be able to
even move our belongings when evicted is horrifying, I would have no where to live not to mention no funds to even rent a
truck or storage unit, and the thought of my daughter having to live in a motel or our 2 seater car is terrifying. And
the having to give up our family cat & dog... I never thought my life could get to this point, I have never
been in this situation, but quite frankly it is becoming overwhelming...
Begging for donations!!!
I am embarrassed and ashamed but desperate!
I guess I could lie and say something heartwrenching and fake, but the truth be told, I live
in Washington state, our economy has been hit severely, I am sufferring for it, being in the techie field as a freelance/consultant/webdesigner.
I
am a single Mom of a gorgeous, very highly intelligent 10 year old daughter, (on the ITBS test she scored in the top 10% nationally) whom
I have supported without any assistance from the state nor government. I am ashamed to have to place this website, but the
non profit helping agnecies in my area are out of funds-I did check with them prior to placing this website. Even our
food banks are at an all time low. I hate to stoop to this level but I am about to be evicted from my home, I have lived here
for 5 years-it gets worse...
The worst part is my landlord is my neighbor and his wife and grown kids and grandkids
have become my surrogate family, God Bless them, they mean the world to me, We now have a family and
"sisters" and my daughter has "cousins" as my mother, father & grandparents have all passed away several years ago, I
have nowhere to turn to for help. Our situation is urgent!!!
I am not a lazy
person, but do have numerous medical isues-which prevents me from working a normal 9-5 which wouldn't really even help at
this point, I am so indebt to my landlord/psuedo father-I am just overwhelmed. I do not rely on Public Assistance and
I have never been in this situation in my life!!! I am drug
free and consider being a mother first & foremost, along with the bread winner.
I am doing the best I can. I feel I am doing an outstanding job as a parent, my child is in the top 10% educationally,
nationally speaking as far as the tests are concerned-she does very well in school and is a bright, articulate kind
child and a pure joy to have in my life-she is VERY social and has many many friends. I am truly blessed.
I
am not some 300 lb person sitting on the couch doing nothing, nor am I some leach nor stupid/ignorant person unwilling to
work. I do internet marketing from home and build websites when work comes my way, nothing fancy but, hey, it pays some
bills. I have just sufferred some serious financial setbacks and am about to be evicted, I just need to get back on my
feet, my indebtedness has caused me to become depressed and less motivated due to the guilt. But I still get up and
try to do some sort of work, whatever I can find... And knowing how much I am in arrears makes it challenging to
become motivated, I just need a leg up, so to speak. I know my life will get better but this is just a horrifying ordeal
for me, I have never ever not been able to pay my rent & utilties-I am scared to death of what may happen.
I feel
IMMENSE guilt over not being able to pay my landlord/pseudo father (who has taught my daughter to fish along with his birth
grand children and who works his butt off as a roofer) whom has become my family, I don't know where or what I will do should
I get evicted-which I am sure, is not far off, he/they can not carry me any longer, he had to take a loan out to cover my
rent/his mortgage. I feel such immense guilt over this, they have gone out of their way to help me/us, I just feel so
badly-I didn't want this to happen
As of April 21, 2005 I owe $7,000 to him. If any of you would please pass along
my site, I would so appreciate it, I loathe begging for help money etc and have always taken care of myself since the age
of 16 out on my own. I am in my early 40's, this is NO scam, I just want to have a place to live and take care of my child.
We raise chickens and sell organic eggs-I am a very good HONEST person, this is beyond degrading but I don't want to lose
my daughter-by having to place her in another city with friends, we live in a small community in the burbs of Seattle, this
is our HOME, and she is my life, and all I have-all of my family have passed away unfortunately. I have
a 1/2 brother in another city, he is doing his best but is unable to help.
I have just been dealt some very harsh
financial blows in the last 2+ years which, I will not depress anyone with by sharing the details, it would have sent most
into a psych ward. I am just asking for anyyyyy contributions $!00.00, $20.00 $5.00 or $1.00, I have the ability to earn
a decent living but am so buried financially with my back rent, utilites and day to day expenses I am beyond overwhelmed.
I have NO charge cards nor lavish expenses. I just need a leg up, so to speak.
If I weren't so old I would
maybe consider "film work" but that would be a poor example for my child-and more degrading than this site-but I am truly
desperate.
I do believe in God hence my ability to hope there are people out there that will help-I pray
this is so.
Thank you!!!
I really don't wanna hang out on the freeway ramp.
Feel free to email me if you want to help, if you have nothing kind to say, then don't bother to
email-no sense kicking someone while they are down...unless you have a problem, but please save the cruelty for the felons,.
thank you!
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